Apologies

     Hey guys,
        Sorry I haven't posted anything a a few weeks, but I've been really sick lately and there has just been a lot of negative things happening lately. Even though all these negative things are happening I'm trying to look at the positive in every situation. Also I'm trying to find a new job because let just say my current one isn't quite what I'm looking for in life.I feel a little bad because I haven't been keeping up with my blog, my photography/art, you tube now for a few weeks/ months. I guess that's what winter does to some people.

       On a brighter note some rather positive things have happened lately as well, in fact I just came to find out that I've lost weight which I hadn't even noticed. I'm going to be looking at a "new" car as soon as I get my taxes done, yes it may not be my dream car but at least I'll have something. :]

        I just kind of wanted to update you all on whats be going on, and tell you all that I'm really sorry. I'm going to try to post work on things on my days off more now. I've really been changing my outlook on life lately, and I've really opened up to some new things. I can't wait to share more updates with you guys soon, have a great night all! Also remember to always look at the positives of every negative situation because you never now what you could be missing.

      - Courtney (Lady Chaos)

My Perfect Imperfections

Artwork done by Myself

     So I saw someone else post this on their blog, and they were encouraging others to do it. Basically what this post is about is to basically post three things yourself, and three things you may not like as much. So this is my version of this!SO! Let's start!!!

      3 Things I love:

          1. Creativity: Does this count? I love the creative side of my personality because it allows me to express who I am! I can use different ways such as media, art form, music.. whatever I wish and make it my own. Being creative you can take all your thoughts,feelings, dreams, and wonders and combined them into something wonderful that you can share with everyone. So yes I think this could work!

          2. Eyes: I've always gotten comments on my eyes ever since I was little. I never thought my eyes were special until I got into high school, and realized that eyes are unique things and that that not everyone's are the same. I think I also like them because they can express many things that people don't realize, and my eyes tend to change with how I'm feeling which makes me love them.

          3.Ears: This one might be weird but I really like my ears even though they are very different, I have one ear that is almost like an elf ear because it has a point on it. I think that is the most interesting feature that not many people know about me because I usually have my hair down. Also I love my ears because they are gauged, yes a lot of people have them but they make me feel good because they have a special meaning to me.People always say that gauges have no real meaning, but to me I do because I started doing them when I met my husband.

     3 Imperfections:

        1. Hair: I dislike my hair to a point that it gets me very aggravated this is only because I have like super thin hair, and it makes me feel so self-conscious about myself because I feel like others have beautiful hair and I'm the one stuck with hair you can't do anything with. I also tend to cut it a lot because it always gets to certain length and I get to scared to grow it out any further, and I tend to change the color a lot!

        2. Body: I've never had great confidence in my body because in school I was always picked on by kids because I was bigger. So growing up I was always shown that thin was better and being bigger was something bad. In middle school/ high school I got so depressed I started not eating and working out and dropped a lot of weight. Kids stopped picking on me because I was that BIG girl anymore, but still to this day I don't have great self-coincidence because of the way my peers had treated me, but maybe one day I'll grow out of that and learn to love my body.

        3. Nails: My nails have never been the greatest, but I've tried to get over it. Seeing all my friends growing up being able to do their nails and look beautiful. I felt like every time I did mine they would break or chip, and theirs were always perfect and in place. I've tried fake nails, acrylics,everything but still can't seem to find that one thing that works for me.

     Well, that's My Perfect Imperfections post, I hope that more people do these and that we can all grow to learn to love ourselves. I've noticed I had more to say about the things I didn't like then with the things I did like, but this just goes to show that there is always something we need to learn to love. It's just human nature! Also I want to wish everyone a Happy Valentines day, and to be safe in all this nasty weather we are having no matter where you are. XOXO

                                                               - Courtney(Lady Chaos)

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First Blog

Hello Ladies and Gents,
    This is my first official Blog post. I just kind wanted to do an introductions type post. First off I wasn't to say that I'm sorry that my blog isn't very "put" together yet. Right now I've been trying to figure out where I want to go with this, as well as my you tube. As far as now all I know is I think they are both going to be pretty random at the start, and that I have no real "theme" as of thus far.
     I'm thinking I'm going to be posting a lot of the photography work, and exciting adventures I encounter within this journey I call life. I'm really thinking I want to reach out and go past my comfort point and actually try new things. This is the first actual "real" blog I've ever made... I use tumblr, but I feel that is more about pictures then being an actual blog. So this should be interesting, but I'm super excited about this.
     Again I'm sorry about the Pre-mature blog, but I'm going to start working on it. I also think I'm going to be posting a lot more on here, and I think this is a good way for me to start channeling some of my thoughts and feelings.I hope you're all having a wonderful day and hope to start getting some feed back and support from some of you guys. Remember life is a journey so risk it all and never look back!
                              -Lady Chaos (Courtney Hodgkins)